always a blend

Today is the 74th day since we started staying home as much as possible except for essential purposes. My quarantine partner has been my niece that started living with me this past January. I usually saw my niece once a year because we lived in different countries so this quarantine time has been a great bonding time for us and I’ve loved having her here with me.

I often describe myself as an introvert because I am pretty comfortable being alone and feel tired when I am around many people for a long time. I thought this might make it easier for me than some people to stay home.

But I can’t imagine how this quarantine experience would’ve been if my niece wasn’t here and I was alone for 74 days… and when I thought about what I am actually missing and wanting to go back to… is feeling people around me. I noticed how just being out and about even if it’s going to my usual café to quietly read my book while drinking a latte and having and feeling the presence of people around me was actually giving me some kind of uplifting energy.

We are a blend of yin and yang. There’s no absolute. Yin cannot exist without yang and vice versa.

I am not 100% introverted or extroverted. I am not 100% Yin or Yang. I am a blend of the two always swirling together and influencing one another.

I look forward to the day I can be surrounded by a sea of people at a concert dancing and screaming.