Let me be

This year, my New Year’s Resolution is to not change. Not change my slowness.

I eat slow.
I read slow.
I think slow.
I process slow.

I have a very self-critical mind and my tendency is to look forward to the day I magically become someone I approve of, and my self-criticism finally stops haunting me. Making a New Year’s Resolution to become a better version of myself sounds so attractive! I usually have some kind of change I wish to make every year that excites me. But the progress is slow, especially for me, and I usually get disappointed in myself and that disappointment actually slows me down even more.

So when I saw the the article by Bernie Clark “The Yinside of New Year’s Resolutions” saying that there can also be a resolution to NOT change, to balance out the usual resolution to improve (which is the definition of Yang), I decided that this year I will resolve to accept my slowness and no longer try to change it.

Change can be difficult. Allowing yourself to be and not change can also be difficult. This year, I will challenge myself to embrace my slowness, and at the same time, allow others to have their own pace too.