beauty doesn’t last forever

March 16, 2016 … First day teaching my Yin Yoga class at the newly opened Yogaworks Playa Vista studio

You’re waiting for a friend to show up. You see her walking toward you and notice she is holding a bouquet of flowers. It makes you happy, because who doesn’t love to receive flowers? But as she gets closer, you notice that the flowers are actually made of plastic. And you feel disappointed.

Flowers are beautiful because they are alive, which means their aliveness and beauty is temporary.

I heard Bernie Clark say this during a Yin Yoga class and it stuck with me.

During this pandemic, I think I’ve stayed pretty positive. I’ve been enjoying staying home spending quality time with my niece, teaching Yoga classes on Zoom, taking long walks with the few dogs that I dogsit.

I knew some things would never be the same. I knew that the studio I’ve been teaching at for over ten years, Yogaworks, might not make it through this pandemic. If it came to that, I felt I was ready to let it go.

So when I received the e-mail that they will be closing, I wasn’t surprised at all.

Although I thought I was emotionally prepared, I’ve found myself feeling deeply the last few days.

It was little things: Interactions I had with other teachers, staff, and students. I miss that very much. I didn’t get to say a proper good-bye.

The last class I taught at Yogaworks was Yin Yoga at the Westwood studio. I didn’t know that would be my last class forever. I took it for granted that I would be back there to teach one day.

The studio was beautiful. The students, fellow teachers and staff are beautiful people. The days I taught there were beautiful.